Today (and yesterday), I loaded up a grocery cart with the
basic needs I am so familiar shopping for and delivered them to another family
whose babies are crying because there’s just not enough food.
Today I grieved with and offered all that I had within me to
my friend, the pastor’s wife from my local church, when she told me she’d been
with a family from our church for the past two days. There was a funeral this
morning for the family’s 19-month-old baby who had been poisoned by a
witchcraft-practicing neighbor.
Today I was greeted with a, “MAMA KACY!!!” as soon as I
stepped into the hospital because one of the newest little boys in the
children’s ward already knew me from play-dates and feeding programs.
Today I parked in front of Mama Charity’s temporary shack to
find her and her friend Busi out in the sun, babies scattered around them and
tools in hand, doing physical labor to try to make enough money to feed those
babies tonight.
And that was all before noon!
My tires know every bump and pothole on the roads to the
hospital, the grocery stores, and countless shacks. I’ve worn those roads down
with heavy loads of people and provision. But, even with all of those trips
bearing all of those good things, I wonder if I’m just spinning my wheels.
Is there more to this than meeting these immediate needs
with loaves of bread and wiping tears off cheeks?
I want to bring the Source of never-ending daily bread
and forever-ended sorrow.
He says to pray for His Kingdom to come on earth as it is in
heaven.
That sounds all-inclusive to me.
It sounds like He says to call down heaven even to the places
on earth covered with dusty potholes, empty bellies and small caskets. Even to
an empty cottage on a lonely night when all you can hear are crickets and questions.
The wheels of the Kingdom don’t just spin.
They propel. They compel. They move.
The have to
move.
Because I can’t fill up another shopping cart or dodge one
more pothole if nothing’s moving. If eternity dripped with tears, what would
the point of it all be?
I’ve been in a spiritual wheel-spinning, motion-going kind
of rut for a couple of weeks. I’ve felt like everybody else’s lives are moving
on, going somewhere, and that I’m stuck in this Africa-sized pothole where
money stays short, babies stay hungry, and birth certificates never come.
The thief comes to steal my perspective, kill my will to
keep going, and destroy my ability to see where He’s leading me.
But the wheels of the Kingdom go round and round.
They go to the ends of the earth and to the depths of my
loneliness and fears.
There’s a highway
being prepared.
It has no place for the wheels of sorrow or suffering to
spin.
It’s not paved with loneliness, shortsightedness, or
questions.
“And a highway will be there; it will be called the Way
of Holiness… only the redeemed will walk there… Gladness and joy will overtake
them, and sorrow and sighing will flee away.” (Isaiah 35: 8, 9b, 10b)
I’ll keep driving those same roads – because He says to. And
because I still love it. But I have to look for more there. Or my days, my
spirit and even my hugs and kisses send me deeper into this rut.
I’m compelled to keep driving down Old Plaston Road until
it is called the Way of Holiness.
I’m surrendering my spinning wheels for something out of my
hands and understanding.
On November 3 – 13, my Community
Development team leaders and I are exchanging wheels for wings and trusting God
all the way to Jinja, Uganda.
We’ve heard Him say there’s more for us – there’s more for
the way we live and love at Ten Thousand Homes. He’s ready to trust us with the
keys for what’s next, and I believe it’s something so much deeper than a
pothole.
We are going to Uganda to serve,
support and learn from an organization called Orphans Know More. The awesome
team at Ten Thousand Homes is making it possible for us to step outside of our daily
lives for 10 days and to trust God to pave a little bit more of His highway… to
fill in a pothole or two.
Please pray for us to have eyes to see, ears to hear and
hearts that can receive what more God has for us.
Pray that even now I can step out of this rut and into the
faith I need for the rest of this day and for this Uganda trip.
Pray for us to bring back what God has for us and to start
next year with more.
Please also pray for the practical details of our trip.
We have airplane tickets… and that’s all! Carla, John and I each need to raise
$850 more for in-country travel, accommodation, meals, etc. We have invested
what we have, and now believe for about $2500 MORE.
If you would like to be a part of paving the way through
giving toward our trip, you can give directly from my blog to my PayPal account
or, for tax-deductible giving, you can give online at www.tenthousandhomes.org.
Please make sure you write in on your donation as well as letting me
know that the funds are designated for “Community Development Uganda Trip”.
Thank you for believing more for me, for Ten Thousand Homes,
for South Africa, and for us doing this together.
Father God, be with Kacy and those around her today and in the coming weeks. Grant them restoration. Restore their faith and their assurance that they are in EVERY way working and loving and crying and driving and feeding and hugging and building and rebuilding for Your children and according to Your plan. Give them faith beyond what they can see, trust beyond all reason, acceptance that You are guiding their steps for the betterment of Your kingdom.
ReplyDeleteThese people are dreamers, Lord, they dream of a day when no child will go hungry, when the community will be full of love for one another and work together to do no harm but instead lift each other up, when there will be a home for everyone where they are safe and all your people will know the love and grace and faithfulness of you, God. But don't let their dreams keep them from seeing the good and wonderful things you have done and continue to do today all around them. Refill their cups, restore their faith, be their strength when all seems lost, that they might continue to be a light to all around them in the darkness.
Bless this trip to Uganda that it might renew their purpose and replenish their spiritual reserves and rekindle the flames of their compassionate work, bring those traveling safety and the resources they need to pay for it according to Your will, Amen.
Mama Kacy, I love you and send you big old bootie shakes and hugs and tears from Texas. Keep the faith, navigate those potholes, and may God ever pull you out of the ruts of life. You are wonderful, your work matters (how amazing that a child you helped at a feeding could see your love when sent to hospital?!), and God is at work in and through you, girlfriend.
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DeleteGinger, thank you for the prayers, the support and this crazy love that can only come from being crazy enough to come. Love you and thankful for you.
HUGS!
-kc