There’s a new game in the little blue Mazda.
The Thankful Game.
It’s revolutionizing my outlook, starting conversations I
would have missed, and making me laugh at how much Lennon scowls under the
pressure.
I keep a reminder right in front of me. I write about it on
my windshield with dry-erase markers. Scribbled in purple across the top of the
driver’s side window, I constantly glance up to:
“Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his
courts with praise…” Psalm 100:4
And then I remember.
I want to be with Him. In His gates. In His courts. In
His lap.
Thanksgiving is the key. The first thing. Always.
I don’t want to be the girl who stands across the street
shouting, hoping He hears me and that magic wand sprinkles a miracle in my
direction.
I want to be sitting at the feet, curled up on the lap,
bouncing on the shoulders of My Father – His hand consuming mine, His eyes
locked in mine – talking Family talk.
We enter his gates with thanksgiving and
his courts with praise.
We enter his hands and his lap through Adoption,
paid for by Jesus and sealed by the Spirit.
So we start with just Three Things.
Three things we are thankful for right then and there,
safely belted into the little blue Mazda.
Yesterday I went on three car rides.
First, Lindsay and I went to pick up a donation from a local
South African who decided to use her own time, her own money, and to break
everyday’s routine to respond with true religion (James 1:27).
Then, Laura, Lindsay and I went to Dwaleni to find Nandi –
who hasn’t been home since Saturday night. We couldn’t find any mamas, but the kids came out of nowhere
at the sight of the little blue Mazda. One 2-year old face in the rear view
mirror, and another’s little legs running with a smile. Then Nandi appeared,
head-in-hands to hide her relieved smile. Then 5-year old Tommy and 4-year old
Charity playing with another group of kids.
I had no idea what to do with all these little longing,
smiling faces. There were no mamas around to give them attention, but they felt
like celebrities when the Mazda pulled up full of kisses and laps.
Well then…
EVERYBODY IN!
VICTORY LAP!
I’m not kidding… Ten kids in the car, white-girl Jesus rap
music blaring, and car-dancing as we drove a circle around Dwaleni… just
because we could.
Kevin got to drive |
We took Nandi and Tommy to my house. They were lethargic
from hunger and filthy from inattention. They played and played and played, and
ate and ate and ate. They had bubble baths and dressed up in mine and Lifa’s
warm clothes.
Long-legged, 11-year old Nandi loves the idea of running
water and showers, but this time she wanted to be a kid… and take a bubble
bath. In a bath bucket that she had to curl half her body into at a time - but it was worth it. As I chopped
green beans in the kitchen, her folded up, bubbly body sang “Hallelujah Jesus!!!”
while playing with Lifa’s bath tub toys.
Finally, sleepy and satisfied, it was time to load up Nandi
and Tommy to go back to Dwaleni – plus Lennon, Laura, Lindsay and Rae. As we
pulled up, Mama Nandi walked up and grasped Nandi’s hand. In SiSwati, she said
she would hold Nandi so she doesn’t run away and made empty promises that she
wouldn’t beat her. Nandi grabbed my hand, clutching, squeezing, begging. She
looked at me crying, big, desperate tears. “No, no, nooo, Mama Kacy, noooo,” in
a voice loud enough for only me to hear. I asked if she could sleep at my house
– the grip wasn’t getting any looser. Her mom said no. So I had to let go. All
I could do was hug her, kiss her, and say, “I’m sorry Nandi” through
everybody’s tears.
It was horrible.
So we prayed together on the solemn car ride back. And then
we played The Thankful Game – even though we had to choke it out at first.
1. Thank You for being more just and more sovereign than I am - for loving Nandi and Tommy bigger and better than I do.
2. Thank You that light casts out darkness, and that Your Name IS Light.
3. Thank You that You are building a relationship with Mama Nandi. That, somehow, in that interaction, she was affected by Light.
Every car ride is different.
Every moment is different.
He’s always the same.
We always approach Him, stand before His sovereign power
and glory the same way.
Thanksgiving.
Three Things at a Time.
Kacy, you do not know me, but I am a friend of Laura Uechi. She sent me to the direction of your blog and I can't say I have heard a more passionate person than you. I encourage you to keep moving and believing that God will provide.
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Keep abiding! I know God has a lot in store for the village.
-Trevor Tomlinson